I don’t know who reads this but I feel compelled to write this to you.
One thing I know to be true: The God living and breathing and having his way in me will never let me down. It will never disappoint or abandon me. If the direction we are going seems odd or impossible, then I know it is Him and I know that it will astound.
My new phrase to God (it’s what I find myself saying to him each morning) is “What do you have for me today?” And he answers, he answers mightily. He does His biggest, most profound work in my weakness. I am surrendering each time I say it. I am saying “Lord, not my will but yours.” I am declaring that even when it feels hopeless and impossible, I will trust that your way is best.
Am I living perfect days where I love everyone, never raise my voice or always hope? Ha-quite the opposite. I am displaying the same human behaviors as everyone else. I get scared and I resort to what makes me feel in control. I resort to actions that contradict God. For example, me and my mom getting into an argument last Wednesday, cussing at a work situation (every day last week), speaking disrespectfully to a co-worker or lashing out at the one I love the most out of sheer fatigue. This week was not where I was the most spiritual or where I displayed God in action, but it was a week where I had the most breakthrough and victory. Why? It is because in all of those ugly, human moments God interrupted. He became what I could not be. He forgave, reconciled and represented. He took my weakness and became my glorious strength. The spirit of the living God said, “Good. You can’t so I can!”
1 Corinthians 2 was a passage of choice last Thursday. God took me there and brought to my attention the first few verses. Paul is talking about a moment where he preached to the people of Corinth. He admitted that he was scared and didn’t feel he had what it would take to preach effectively.
2 1-2 You’ll remember, friends, that when I first came to you to let you in on God’s master stroke, I didn’t try to impress you with polished speeches and the latest philosophy. I deliberately kept it plain and simple: first Jesus and who he is; then Jesus and what he did—Jesus crucified.
3-5 I was unsure of how to go about this, and felt totally inadequate—I was scared to death, if you want the truth of it—and so nothing I said could have impressed you or anyone else. But the Message came through anyway. God’s Spirit and God’s power did it, which made it clear that your life of faith is a response to God’s power, not to some fancy mental or emotional footwork by me or anyone else.
Look it up in any translation and it says the same thing. I had nothing yet God’s spirit did the work. All Paul did was surrender His fear and allowed the All in All to fill the places where fear was fixed. What God did in that sermon, he did in me this past week. I had nothing to give God. No faith, no eloquent prayer, not even a smile. I was beat, tired, weak and hopeless. I was making all sorts of mistakes hurting those I loved in my feelings of fear. Yet, God was His best. He was so stunning. Speaking and resolving in ways untold. Breaking through barriers and winnowing the hills to chaff. You should have seen Him! He was a mighty warrior in battle, bringing clarity, wisdom and healing. I was literally in the back seat watching God drive my life. There was no comment from God that I should have been more brave or resorted to other, more spiritual behaviors that would make Him look good. There was just a God standing in the middle of my weakness and making His power KNOWN. All because He loves me. He wanted me to see and know that He is God. Boy, did I see Him. My goodness. He turned my darkness into light, put a song in my mouth and flooded me with favor.
The ironic thing is those were the words I had been speaking over my life before the trouble started. How did the Holy Spirit know that I need those phrases?”Flood of favor is coming to me.” “I am blessed beyond measure.” “I am confident, healed and whole.” “I lack for no good thing.”
God didn’t need my strength, just my surrender.
Those who are led by the spirit are sons of God. Romans 8:14
You are a daughter/son of God by simply declaring who Jesus is! So walk in your sonship, surrender and let God do the leading. He will lead you right out of your self into the self you always knew you could be!