On October 21. 2023, I experienced the eyes of God.
It is as dramatic as it sounds. It ricocheted into my very being. My DNA changed. My psyche changed. I no longer was earthly. I am not saying I became a saint and have never had a bad thought or sinned since. I am just honestly saying that what I care about and deeply desire to do in this life has nothing to do with me because of what I saw. What I saw instantly became who I am. Just 3 years later, the experience is more fervent and real than ever before.
It has become deeply desirable, even plausible to “lay down my life for my brother” (John 15:13 KJV).
The love God, the creator of all, gave me for the North Korean people is the same aching, intentional, self-denying love He has for them. It is a love that takes no thought for your own life, a love that is willing to give His Son. It is hard to explain.
Here is my futile attempt:
His eyes are flames of fire as Daniel 10:6 says…
His body also was like the beryl, and his face as the appearance of lightning, and his eyes as lamps of fire, and his arms and his feet like in colour to polished brass, and the voice of his words like the voice of a multitude. (KJV)
There is nothing like it. All time stops. All pursuits stop. All meaning stops. I was not a mom, a wife nor a child or adult. I was simply face to face with all that exists and will ever exist. It was love. It was timeless and all His face could do was love. All I knew was love and all I ever want to be from that moment forward has been…to love.
The eyes blazed, the face was lightning. My flesh was undone. It was helpless against the awe, fear, and wonder of holy, perfect love. I was thrust back without injury almost 7 pews. I screamed in agony. But as the flesh died, the Spirit was renewed.
16 For which cause we faint not; but though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day.
17 For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory; (2 Corinthians 4:16-17 KJV)
I will never want that flesh to be united with me. I will never want to think like I did before. I will never want selfish motive and vain attempts. I am ruined for ordinary and mundane. Almost 3 years later, I cannot be in His presence and be casual. I cannot enter irreverently. I can only succumb to His awe.
These eyes spoke. He said “I burn with love for my people.” I saw the Korean Peninsula. I saw the South lit up and the North as black as night. This is a vision that was both spiritually and physically accurate. There is no electricity in North Korea except intermittent possibility in Pyongyang-its capital. North Korea is the most dangerous towards Christianity and the most hostile to freedom. It is a dictatorship that uses and abuses its people with no freedom of choice in anything. They aren’t even allowed to love who they want. They love only one thing: the Supreme Leader. He is their end and beginning, their alpha and omega. They adore and worship their oppressor.
This deeply, deeply breaks the heart of love, God, YHWH. He has not forgotten His people. He is not a God who has forgotten their suffering. He is a God who established a people who would love like Him.
19 Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost:
20 Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. Amen. (Matthew 28:19-20 KJV)
His plan is for a bride to go. A person that will go for a people. Jesus emulated this self-giving, sacrificial love.
This is a love I have willingly received and freely give.
Every effort, belief, act heretofore, is preparing me to go in the love of the Father to a people that need us. For now, we can only go in prayer. Anyone who is opposed to the NK regime is an enemy to the state and would be imprisoned or executed for their arrival. Again, this is a hostile land.
When I was at the DMZ back in the summer of 2025, I witnessed a stream of water passing through the tunnels. This “living water” bypassed barbed wire, iron gates, and landmines. The river runs to the lowest places. As it moved, I knew instinctively that the gospel cannot be stopped by nuclear power, government oppression, or hostile regimes. Nothing can stop love. It is a force that resurrects what appears to be dead in a grave. He heals because He loves.
This is hope. It is a hope I live and would die for. My hope is to bring North Koreans and their children to a safe haven here in the US so they can heal and thrive. But in the meantime, I pray. I pray daily. Pray with me.
Let’s pray together.
- Pray for the North Korean people!
- Sign up to pray and fast for North Korea!
- 기도와 단식으로 북 한국인을 위해 기도합시다
- https://www.prayercast.com/north-korea.htmlhttps://backtojerusalem.com/how-to-pray-for-north-korea/www.psaltnk.org/pray
If you want to know more of the journey of how I got here, you can view this short slideshow.
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